Well, today is January 14th…meaning we are two weeks into the new year…but here is my NEW YEAR NEW ME POST! (kidding…sorta)
We all know the gist…the new year comes around and everyone makes a bunch of resolutions that, more often then not, they do not see the fulfillment of. Yet every single year, so many people go through this ceremonial tradition of resolutions. The newest trend seems to be the “word of the year” thing. Instead of creating resolutions, people decide a word for the year and have that to set the tone for the year. For me, I think this process (of both resolutions and a word) is a really wonderful time to reassess your life and become a bit more intentional.
I started working on this blog post weeks ago. The potential of this post made me really think about what I want for 2019. I made a list of of the things that 2019 will hold for me: more connections, more hobbies, graduating college, and so many other things. But the more I have thought about them, the more they seem to have become filtered down to the most important aspects I want in 2019. It is really only three things, but they are good ones!
One of the really big things, for 2019, that is on the
agenda plans potential adventures is the topic of marriage. Christian (the very handsome rockstar boyfriend) and I have been dating for over 2 years, and for us that had led us getting quite a bit serious (not an ounce of judgement if you and your partner need longer than that or less than or whatever your relationship choices are). We have begun talking about marriage and what the future looks like for us. We had some very serious conversations over the holidays and we have decided that this is our final year before we get married. (Disclaimer: we do NOT have a date. We are not even engaged, but we are very aware that our time of being unmarried is coming to an end).
I share this because one of the biggest things I want to do this year is really embrace this time before getting married. I want to use this final year of singleness to really get healing, to prepare my heart and life for the process of officially becoming life partners with someone. I want this to be a year of preparing and adventure. (I think I will write more about this later…about the things I want to accomplish, but that will come later).
This year the word I chose for the year is Failure.
I know, that sounds so strange, but hang with me!
As a type 1 enneagram (if you have not done this personality test yet…you have to!!) I do everything in my power to avoid being “bad” or to avoid “corruption” or to not fail. Type 1 has an absurd moral standard and only see actions/people as either good or bad. There is no gray. Because of this thinking, I avoid doing a lot of things that I know I won’t be the best at. I avoid doing a lot of things that seem “wrong” because I do not want to become wrong. Because of this, I avoid a lot of life.
In 2019 I do not want to do that anymore. I want to intentionally embrace the failures of life. Failures are inevitable. They are not things that can be avoided. I want to intentionally do things that I feel like I fail at…painting, bowling, or challenges for myself (like my list of books I intended to read over Christmas). I want to accept my failures and know that they are a part of me.
I want to truly know that my failures make me who I am and are just as important as my successes. This word for the year is making me feel more brave and more adventurous…
which leads me to my third (and final) goal for 2019…
Deciding not to fear failure has pushed me to making a big decision…I have decided to become a Young Living distributer. Young Living is a company that sells all natural products, more specifically, essential oils. Essential oils are called the “life blood” of a plant. Basically, it is this oil that is extracted from a plant that is used to support/benefit one’s life. For example, you could use peppermint essential oil to help get rid of your headache. Another example is using the oil called “Peace and Calming” to promote tranquility in your mind, emotions, and life. You use these oils topically, internally, or diffuse them into the air. These oils have changed my life. I have contemplated becoming a distributer for months now, because I really believe in the products. I was scared, though, because I am afraid of what people will think and I am afraid that I won’t sell the products. With the encouragement of embracing failure, plus the extreme desire to make my life more natural and healthy that I am doing it. I will definitely be sharing more later, but for now…you can check out my new Instagram: @SmellyGalEssentials
I am very excited about 2019. I think that this will be a magical year filled with accomplishment and grace.
What do YOU want to accomplish in 2019?